LITTLE MAMA

Well I wish I could say it went off without a hitch, but sadly not. Holidays are always rough because our families are so separated. My husbands parents and my parents are both divorced and our mothers re married. My ultimate goal would for everyone to get along and all get together in one location every year I think that is because when I was younger it was like that for a while and those are some of my best memories I have as a child. This year I went and saw my dad the Sunday before Thanksgiving with Ari it was a good visit we just hung out and watched a movie. On Thanksgiving day we went to Ryan's mothers house for a couple hours it was nice just us my stepson and his stepdad & stepbrother.

Friday is when we actually celebrated, we cooked at our house for the first time since we have been together which is 7 years now so that was really nice. My mom and stepdad came over with my nephew and sister. My brother and his girlfriend came over too. Unfortunately my brother and sister don't talk for reasons of their own so when my sister found out he was coming over too she got upset and went upstairs for the entire day it was horrible. I still made the best of it and everyone had a good time. Everyone loved the food which was great too. I don't get to see my brother that often either so that was awesome hanging out with him.

I am the kind of person that worries about everyone else before myself and I always want to make sure that no one is left out has their feelings hurt and feels sad. I have always been like this and I guess it is a good thing but also sucks at times, especially when I can't do anything about the situation.

Now with having our daughter I want the best for her I want her to grow up a happy girl and give her the best memories possibly. I know being only 8 weeks old she won't remember anything now but one day she will and and I want her to have a positive life with such a beautiful outlook. That is my wish for her ... to be happy & full of love. She has changed everything for us 100% and I just want to be able to give her the best life possible and know that we will.

If you know me then you know Halloween is probably my favorite Holiday besides my birthday ;) & Valentines. I love everything about it from dressing up to decorating and all the festivities. Sometimes I wish I was born on Halloween so I could have a costume party every year...but anyways enough about that!

Ari dressed up as a little pumpkin and I was a black cat, went traditional this year since it was her first Halloween and she is only 4 1/2 weeks old and oh so little!


We went treat or treating with my stepson and his friend at his mom's house and Ari came along for the ride aka I pushed her in the stroller while she slept.

I had been feeling sick for weeks and my husband was out of town for work for a couple week due home today. I had ordered a pregnancy test on Amazon just in case, but I did not think I could become pregnant so fast as we just started trying in December. He was home from work and taking a shower and I couldn't wait any longer so I took one of the tests. 

Directions say: Wait 3 minutes for results, 1 line not pregnant, 2 lines pregnant. Well . . . I was not even done peeing on the stick and BAM…YOUR PREGNANT! I told my husband who was excited as I was. My reaction..happy, crying, happy, shocked, hungry. :)

We went to dinner that night and the next day I went down hill…threw up and beyond sick :( made my doctors appointment for the following Tuesday where they confirmed my pregnancy with another test and scheduled an ultrasound for later that week due to my bad morning sickness so early they thought it may be twins! I was also prescribed medicine to help with the morning sickness..which may have just helped with the throwing up but not the nausea.

We feel so blessed to have gotten pregnant so fast as we know that is not always the case. Even though I am sick we are beyond excited and can't believe we are going to have our own little nugget due in September! :)